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| tonight, i feel a bit down. maybe it's a withdrawal from excessive amounts of fun or i'm just getting off of the momentum from a great year and fearful of what's to come. i'm still reflecting on last year and its already the three or four days in to the new one. i guess in a year full of changes i'm trying to hold on to whatever i have left that's constant. i was really hoping that with everyone home things would go back to the way they used to be. but according to certain circumstances and whatever else, that didn't happen as much as i planned. so i guess that's why i'm a bit down. meh...
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| So the only right thing to do now is tell 2006 in a lengthy analysis of my life. Two words can accurately describe this past year- mixed emotions. Ironically in those two words, only another million can be used to properly define the true definition. There was much happiness, excruciating amounts of love, unexpected blessings and a certain feeling of accomplishment. Likewise, where happiness exists, sadness follows, pain is present and all those other bad things have to come to pass to keep the order of things in life. There were definite tears, of both joy and pain. There was definitely a lot of laughter, even if sometimes that was the only thing that kept me from breaking down. But in the end, through everything, i find myself more mature, understanding and stronger.
so 2006, there was a transition in life between two chapters. high school ended and college began. In between the transition and going back and forth, meeting new people and saying farewell to others, existed a slight identity crisis and a constant re-evaluation of who i am, who i want to be, and where i'm going in life. at the end of the year, those questions still exist but the answers are more tangible and clearer than they have ever been in my life. If i be me, if i love and smile through everything, and give it all my might, i think i'll be ok.
the love in this year has surpassed anything. even the love of my family, in my family has grown. i get along extremely well with my brothers. i might sometimes still butt heads with my parents but we'll be ok. friends have never meant more to me than before. i guess its the fear and the actual reality of losing someone who has been there for me in everything that i've gone through. though some relationships might be short lived, i know that its not the length of how long one stays friends, but its the quality and the genuine trust you have in a certain person. this year, i definitely have countless amounts of friends that have my back whenever i need. needless to mention, i think that PKs are the best friends i could ever have.
romantic adventures were in the mix. knowing me, those romances were anything but normal and everything that a hopeless romance is. quiet desperation i waited, slightly moved on, regressed, moved on again and here i am now. there's that state in my heart where it's "whatever".
2006, if it has given me anything at all, it'd be the hope for the future. i believe my faith has grown so much that in spite of has happened, will happen, i have a hope for a bright future. i think if i follow what my feel in my heart is right, and especially with the guidance from god, 2007 will be a good year for me too. 2006 definitely was icing on the cake for me. i loved it. i enjoyed it. every man lives with certain regrets, and of course i do, but... i'd definitely do it all again.
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| so semester ended last friday. i'm very excited. many people are coming home soon. until then, all i've been doing is watching TV and sleeping and mucho driving around. i got all my grades today. mostly A's only 1 B. mehhh GPA is oook. i'm satisfied, but not uber pleased. i'll do better haha. uhmmm that's about it. i'm glad school's over. its good to hang around the apartments without having to worry about school work.
happy bday becca and kim and Sri.
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| yup. thats how life is.
pacquio won! whoohoo lol.
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| can't wait until it's all over. next semester will be different.
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